Friday, October 15, 2010
I wonder ...
I've got a really bad case of the "I wonders" today. I guess these are my private - until now - musings.
I wonder why in my mind I feel the same as when I was, oh say, five or six. Funny how the body falls apart, but the mind just keeps a level field. Now I know that there is the dementias out there, but most of us, thank God, make it into our 60's with brains that are fairly intact. I think those who have dementia also are this way. That was true of my dad - especially because he thought times were about 40 years ago.
But I woke this morning, and as I was rummaging through my thoughts trying to put together all the little pieces of the day, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm 65! I am on Medicare and the pittance of Social Security. How in the heck did the time go so fast. Why it seems like only yesterday I was in school with very few responsibilities! I wonder how this happened!
Then I was reflecting on the internet. It is a wonder that I can keep in touch with old friends like this. It is so much easier to send an email than sitting down to write a letter, find a stamp, etc. I also am amazed at how many friends I have made all over the continent via the internet. Those friends are so interesting. I find out things about where they live. What it's like there - the weather, etc. I wonder how I have been so lucky.
Now I am getting really deep into my wondering. Everyone else would find this deep stuff boring. I wonder about life - what is life; I wonder about space - what is out there. I told you this gets really deep, and probably dull.
Peace be with you.