Monday, June 07, 2010

Strange, strange thoughts

As usual, I am writing like Monkey Boy speaks - stream of consciousness. So it will be a case of hanging on!

I never, never thought these words (actually thoughts for words) would come to my mind. I might like to move to the SSB. It is about 340 miles from here - that translates to 5 - 6 hours drive.

Why do I want to do that? Well, even if the closest neighbor is a mile away, those folks are closer than the ones here! I'm tired of being lonely.

Daugher used to be closer to me than she is now. I know her kidlets are getting older, but she doesn't do as much with them to account for the difference in our relationship. Her calls are fewer and fewer, unless SIL is gone. Then she is on the phone with me all the time.

They went to San Antonio this weekend. She had not called until almost family dinner time last night. I was asleep, and G didn't wake me. Go G!

I know I am emotional right now. I know I shouldn't be this way. I should be happy with the calls I get. Son has been stepping up his calls. That makes me happy.

I guess I am turning into one of those selfish old women.

Sorry I made you read this mess.

Peace be with you.


Marti said...

I wish I could say something to comfort you, but instead I'm just sending a cyber hug.

How is the PT going this time?

Susan Adcox said...

I doubt that this is the best time to make a decision about moving. When I was down, my mom always said, "Things will look better in the morning." And they always did. I don't know if you are writing this in the morning or at night, but it is obviously dark as far as your mood goes. You've been through a lot lately! Give yourself a break and make major decisions later.

Judy said...

Sometimes I feel the same way as you do. If I lived far away, at least that would be an excuse for my kids not to see me. It is hard, knowing they are only a few miles away and yet...don't have the time to call or visit.